I hang up the phone.
Or I shuld say, I called him and I ask a question which I dun wanna knw the answer.
I asked and told
I really dun knw you. I dun even knw is thr still love from you towards me
I din wait for his ans. Cried. Walkin evrywhr in the house. Tryin to stop tears flowing.
Silly huh. I knw.
I hung up the phone and I get crazy.
Threw my hair band on to the floor. Throw my books.
Go near my pencil box and I saw my blade.
Telling myself : Do not touch the blade. Tellin and tellin deep inside my heart.
I use to say ppl who try to cacat themself is stupid, but guess wht. Im being stupid now.
NO! Very stupid!
I looks like a fool. A big fat fool.
Tears flowing. Body shaking. Mind askin me to just go die.
How long have I not experience this after tht kes.
Now. I experience it once again. The feeling is so terrible.
You hide evrything from me,u dun even wants to tell me anything. Fine!
Go tell your others! Dun tell me forever.
I will just give up or I should say ur promise.
[ I will be with you forever ]
There is no forever in this shit world!
Wht if one day I dissapear from ur life,u wont be able to see me at ur whole life. Wht if Im dead. Wht is ur reaction?
Happy? Sad? I dun knw. Or maybe u wont have any feelings.
Cause Im just so normal. Cause you have still so many choices. Cause Im just sumone u dun love.
I appreciate you. What about you? Huh?
Can anyone just let me sleep this whole week not knwing anything? Can I escape from this world?
Tracy Wong just wanna say goodbye. Heart dies.
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